You are here! So here is a bit detailed note on why I am here…
In our day-to-day hustle, struggles of making ends meet, and fulfilling our whims & fancies, we slowly get lost. Sometime, people like me don’t even realize they are lost till they get to pick their head up & watch life pass by in a blink.
I got married at the age of 29 & moved to United States of America to live with my partner. Let’s not talk about life before that as of yet. So, the move was planned for 13th March 2020 & as I was on my flight to USA for my happily ever after. The then President of America declared no incoming flights from any part of world. Lucky for me 13th March was when my flight was landing. Now here I was, in a country where dreams come true against all odds, even pandemic. I thought I was ready for success.
Life had different plans though. I didn’t get my work permit till early June & got it only to get rejected by my two dream companies: Starbucks & Amazon. That’s when reality hit me. Vacation was over. The world was learning a new chapter every day, discovering new hobbies, doing this or that creative work & me? Well, my unmotivated mind just wanted to sit & procrastinate everything. I had lost all motivation, happiness, stupid jokes & a lot of relationships.
That familiar hollow feeling, it was back in my life. I couldn’t read & apparently, I love reading. I realized I had no talents that I inculcated during my childhood or even when I was an adult. I mean sure I can blame my parents for not pushing me or teaching me, but I have been away for 13 years & if I couldn’t teach myself, how could I blame them?
So, I decided to start this blog to capture & share my feelings, my thoughts & hope to grow as this blog grows. By growing I mean sharing whatever I taught my unmotivated mind & body.
I want to talk about real world struggles, experiences, navigating from one problem to another etc. And I am sorry I wouldn’t be able to tell how to overcome them but just to share that problems & feelings however small or even menial they might look, they are not irrelevant. While there is addiction to sadness & depression and I have forgotten to live without them but still enjoying the first sip of latte, smiling when it’s snowing & playing with your puppy like not a thing in the world is wrong.
I’ll keep updating as I discover more about myself & what I have to share.